Today was a busy day it started with my morning workout which was way longer than i expected lol it's like I completely lost track of time,i did my weights then my run and before i knew it i was 90 min in......so i figured i better stop. Something just comes over me when i run i completely let myself go into all directions cause it's when i do all my thinking.
So i finished up, drank my shake while i watched my soap then i realized i needed to take my deposit to the bank,so i put on my shoes and clothes and walked up to the bank,it's in walking distance so why drive and waste gas when i can walk and burn calories?heheheh i'm always thinking about burning calories,i burn calories thinking about burning calories hahahahaah so anyway after my walk i wasen't done i hit the cabinets cleaned them out cause i hate clutter,things have to be in order it drives me NUTS,then i started on the garage which i will finish tomorrow cause toms tools are all over the place,he is such a pack rat ,it takes him forever to go through his stuff,when i get tired of asking i just do it myself and he doesn't even notice when i throw his stuff away cause he has so much junk lol.
So when i want something done i take it upon myself to do it,cause i hate things being messy.......well i think im done jabbering for tonight,im gonna finish my project im making for my brother,finish my cappi then go to bed cause the garage will be an all day thing plus i will have to get my run in...my exercise always comes first.
have a great healthy weekend everyone
BOSU
Well over the weekend I finally got my bosu,i have been wanting one for like ever but never got one cause they are kinda pricey and even if they are on sale...well needless to say it was on sale and a bit cheaper than that so i couldn't pass it up and tom said go ahead it will be one of your christmas presents,so i said ok.
Well let me tell you i hurt in places i didn't know exsisted,and for the most part i thought i was getting alot of places with squats and lunges well let me tell you not a shot hehehehe,i have been doing the basic stuff it came with a dvd and im gonna watch it tonight cause of course there is nothing on during summer time tv,i havent really done alot of core on it yet,but you work it anyway by trying to balance yourself doing the other exercises lol but i love it alot i am so glad i got it........so i think my workout room is pretty much equiped with the stuff you see at the gym except fot the other big machines which is no big deal cause i only use the treadmill there anyway.......i like free weights,bands and balls the best, some machines at the gym i use for my legs only when i wanna switch things up cause when i run i use alot of muscle anyway.......so i just wanted to tell everyone who was thinking about getting a bosu go ahead and get it it's so worth the money.....
I hope everyone has a nice healthy week
Well let me tell you i hurt in places i didn't know exsisted,and for the most part i thought i was getting alot of places with squats and lunges well let me tell you not a shot hehehehe,i have been doing the basic stuff it came with a dvd and im gonna watch it tonight cause of course there is nothing on during summer time tv,i havent really done alot of core on it yet,but you work it anyway by trying to balance yourself doing the other exercises lol but i love it alot i am so glad i got it........so i think my workout room is pretty much equiped with the stuff you see at the gym except fot the other big machines which is no big deal cause i only use the treadmill there anyway.......i like free weights,bands and balls the best, some machines at the gym i use for my legs only when i wanna switch things up cause when i run i use alot of muscle anyway.......so i just wanted to tell everyone who was thinking about getting a bosu go ahead and get it it's so worth the money.....
I hope everyone has a nice healthy week
FOR MY SANITY
Well i have done alot of thinking today about my life,and come to the conclusion that i have to stop wondering about everything,analyzing it thinking did this happen because of this or because of that,what if i did this or said that would it have changed the outcome.
I have always thought that when someone did something it was because of me,thinking i said or done something to make them mad at me,i have always taken things to heart,i take things very personally,don't know why i do but i am working on it.........maybe because so many people have shit on me,i dont trust them and everytime someone says something i always second guess them in my mind thinking are they telling me the truth or am i just being gullable?
Needless to say i think deep down i don't trust anyone but myself........i think honesty is the best key,if its hurtful i would rather hear it then going around the bush or telling me what they think i wanna hear..............the smallest little things like that hurt my feelings,wish they didn't but they do.
Sometimes i wonder if it's all worth it......the feeling of hurt is the worse pain in the whole entire world,you can talk about the hurt and what bothers you,but it doesn't always mean you get the answers your looking for,rather it be them spareing your feelings or just plain lieing to you...so either way your screwed,cause you don't know if your getting the truth or not,or your mind having you overanalyzing everything,and having you just wondering.
I wish i can just blirt everything out but i can't cause it would hurt alot of people and that's not what i am about,just writing it helps alot of the frustration,so i will avoid the hurtful things and the truth would only be denied anyway by the way of excuses or putting the stuff on me so this way saves alot of anger and frustration.So needless to say this summer i am gonna work on me,not taking things so personal,no ASS kissing and no over analyzing....take things with a grain of salt.
I just feel somethimes like the way people feel about me is out of sight out of mind,well i think i am done and i dont wanna keep talking in circles,but i feel like a million pounds has been lifted off my shoulders...
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON
I have always thought that when someone did something it was because of me,thinking i said or done something to make them mad at me,i have always taken things to heart,i take things very personally,don't know why i do but i am working on it.........maybe because so many people have shit on me,i dont trust them and everytime someone says something i always second guess them in my mind thinking are they telling me the truth or am i just being gullable?
Needless to say i think deep down i don't trust anyone but myself........i think honesty is the best key,if its hurtful i would rather hear it then going around the bush or telling me what they think i wanna hear..............the smallest little things like that hurt my feelings,wish they didn't but they do.
Sometimes i wonder if it's all worth it......the feeling of hurt is the worse pain in the whole entire world,you can talk about the hurt and what bothers you,but it doesn't always mean you get the answers your looking for,rather it be them spareing your feelings or just plain lieing to you...so either way your screwed,cause you don't know if your getting the truth or not,or your mind having you overanalyzing everything,and having you just wondering.
I wish i can just blirt everything out but i can't cause it would hurt alot of people and that's not what i am about,just writing it helps alot of the frustration,so i will avoid the hurtful things and the truth would only be denied anyway by the way of excuses or putting the stuff on me so this way saves alot of anger and frustration.So needless to say this summer i am gonna work on me,not taking things so personal,no ASS kissing and no over analyzing....take things with a grain of salt.
I just feel somethimes like the way people feel about me is out of sight out of mind,well i think i am done and i dont wanna keep talking in circles,but i feel like a million pounds has been lifted off my shoulders...
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON
TONIGHTS PLANS
Well it's storming so there is no directv so i will watch a couple of movies that i rented and just chill out.......and that's all she wrote for me
A contemplation and a realization
I was running this morning this song came on and got me thinking about me as a person and my weightloss journey.....the song was I wanna know what love is by wynonna,and as the lyrics were playing i started thinking that while i was fat i was so mad at the world like it was the worlds fault that i was overweight......I never wanted to go anywhere cause no clothes fit I lived in sweat pants and pj pants,and when we did go somewhere i felt like people were looking at me and talking about me.....well to a point I guess thinking to themselves or someone else saying wow look at her she needs to do something about her weight she looks terrible.
I was in such a shell and had a wall up,and so mean to people cause I was afraid of getting hurt,and it turns out I was hurting myself w/ food and not letting anyone get close to me.I guess when i look in the mirror I don't see a different person,cause I look at my arms and think all I am doing and they aren't toning up,and my apron is still there,but I am gonna keep going......as more of the song kept playing it had me thinking more that all that I am doing w/ food and working out it's not about like it was before i gotta do all this to get this weight off and in the back of my mind thinking well if I lose this weight I can eat junk again....it's more about now that this is my life it's no longer a diet it's my lifestyle......and how I am gonna live from now on,when I don't w/o there's alittle guilt but I know I need a days rest so I can be better for the rest of the weeks w/o's.
I have noticed that with the weight loss my self esteem has improved,I don't think that everyone's out to get me lol like I thought before,and I wanna go out and do things,but now I have no clothes really to wear,w/ more weight to lose I don't wanna waste money on clothes that in a few weeks or months I won't be able to wear,so I don't wanna throw that monet away......so I bought cheap tank tops at walmart that stretch so i can get a long time out of them,and it was raining last weekend and cold TOM and I went to the cemetary and it was to cold to wear ttops go figure so i had to wear a sweatshirt heheheheh,so I am glad w/ this weightloss I am in large tops some are mediums pants are larges in w/o clothes and plain shorts but jeans are iffy .
Well thats enough babbling for tonight once I start talking I can't stop.....I have turned into a blabbermouth I love to talk just can't shut up lol lol lol....but anyway I am gonna go cause the LAKERS are getting ready to come on and if we win we go to the finals,if not then there will be a game 7 in LA and we would definately need that one to go to the finals so wish us luck everyone
much love all,jenn
I was in such a shell and had a wall up,and so mean to people cause I was afraid of getting hurt,and it turns out I was hurting myself w/ food and not letting anyone get close to me.I guess when i look in the mirror I don't see a different person,cause I look at my arms and think all I am doing and they aren't toning up,and my apron is still there,but I am gonna keep going......as more of the song kept playing it had me thinking more that all that I am doing w/ food and working out it's not about like it was before i gotta do all this to get this weight off and in the back of my mind thinking well if I lose this weight I can eat junk again....it's more about now that this is my life it's no longer a diet it's my lifestyle......and how I am gonna live from now on,when I don't w/o there's alittle guilt but I know I need a days rest so I can be better for the rest of the weeks w/o's.
I have noticed that with the weight loss my self esteem has improved,I don't think that everyone's out to get me lol like I thought before,and I wanna go out and do things,but now I have no clothes really to wear,w/ more weight to lose I don't wanna waste money on clothes that in a few weeks or months I won't be able to wear,so I don't wanna throw that monet away......so I bought cheap tank tops at walmart that stretch so i can get a long time out of them,and it was raining last weekend and cold TOM and I went to the cemetary and it was to cold to wear ttops go figure so i had to wear a sweatshirt heheheheh,so I am glad w/ this weightloss I am in large tops some are mediums pants are larges in w/o clothes and plain shorts but jeans are iffy .
Well thats enough babbling for tonight once I start talking I can't stop.....I have turned into a blabbermouth I love to talk just can't shut up lol lol lol....but anyway I am gonna go cause the LAKERS are getting ready to come on and if we win we go to the finals,if not then there will be a game 7 in LA and we would definately need that one to go to the finals so wish us luck everyone
much love all,jenn
WELL ANOTHER ONE DOWN
Well it's friday again and nothing new to report if you will......well besides it's the playoffs in basketball and my LAKERS are in WOOOOHOOOOO,and they are back in utah for game 3 and i am so excited.
2 more weeks roughly I will be in georgia visiting KAREN,so excited i can't wait,we will have so much fun,we had a blast last yr.,i can't believe it's been a yr.already,and sunday is mothers day and I am alittle upset because my mom is dead and I don't wanna go to the cemetary,but I will and I get to visit my gram and pap also which they are right above my mom,and they pretty much raised me growing up........and I will not go into the whole situation,let's just say it will be a rough day for me.
My trip to indy I was worried about because my body finally was in a losing streak and I was afraid that if I went because of the different atmosphere and stuff it would completely throw me off......and it did,I did good with my food which I knew i would it was the working out I knew would be trouble and it did....well like always everytime i go there i get sick and i did,so that for one I didn't feel like working out cause it was a chest cold or sinus etc.so.......I did get one day in before I was sick,and when i weighed in it showed a gain which was weird cause i waas only there for 2 days b4 i weighed in so i knew with my food there was no way i over ate,so not sure what was up w/ that.
Then my week started again w/ thursday and by then i was blown out sick so i knew when i weighed in at home it was probably water retention from being sick and 1 day of eating 1700 cal would not do that much damage and i was only up 4oz so i guess that's not bad for 2 weeks......and i will know more by this thursday's weigh in,if i am down alot then i know it was really water retention from being sick and the different atmosphere,but if there's not a big loss then i know i did worse then i thought.....that's why I don't like doing anything different then what my body is used to like going out of town especially when my body is on a roll cause i have learned how to read my body and listen to it so i get afraid cause i know it will take forever to get it back on a losing streak again....and i hope and pray it starts right away......I know our body needs a break but for me a week is to long a day here and there is ok but my body is so touchy it's so weird I think I am an exception to all the rules......LOL,LOL,WELL I think that's enough babbling about my weight issues but once I start I can't stop.....well everyone it's time to sign off for tonight it's almost 9 and the LAKERS will be on and i wanna watch pre game.....I can't help it I love football and basketball I am in heaven when these 2 sports are on.......
NITE ALL
2 more weeks roughly I will be in georgia visiting KAREN,so excited i can't wait,we will have so much fun,we had a blast last yr.,i can't believe it's been a yr.already,and sunday is mothers day and I am alittle upset because my mom is dead and I don't wanna go to the cemetary,but I will and I get to visit my gram and pap also which they are right above my mom,and they pretty much raised me growing up........and I will not go into the whole situation,let's just say it will be a rough day for me.
My trip to indy I was worried about because my body finally was in a losing streak and I was afraid that if I went because of the different atmosphere and stuff it would completely throw me off......and it did,I did good with my food which I knew i would it was the working out I knew would be trouble and it did....well like always everytime i go there i get sick and i did,so that for one I didn't feel like working out cause it was a chest cold or sinus etc.so.......I did get one day in before I was sick,and when i weighed in it showed a gain which was weird cause i waas only there for 2 days b4 i weighed in so i knew with my food there was no way i over ate,so not sure what was up w/ that.
Then my week started again w/ thursday and by then i was blown out sick so i knew when i weighed in at home it was probably water retention from being sick and 1 day of eating 1700 cal would not do that much damage and i was only up 4oz so i guess that's not bad for 2 weeks......and i will know more by this thursday's weigh in,if i am down alot then i know it was really water retention from being sick and the different atmosphere,but if there's not a big loss then i know i did worse then i thought.....that's why I don't like doing anything different then what my body is used to like going out of town especially when my body is on a roll cause i have learned how to read my body and listen to it so i get afraid cause i know it will take forever to get it back on a losing streak again....and i hope and pray it starts right away......I know our body needs a break but for me a week is to long a day here and there is ok but my body is so touchy it's so weird I think I am an exception to all the rules......LOL,LOL,WELL I think that's enough babbling about my weight issues but once I start I can't stop.....well everyone it's time to sign off for tonight it's almost 9 and the LAKERS will be on and i wanna watch pre game.....I can't help it I love football and basketball I am in heaven when these 2 sports are on.......
NITE ALL
SICK AS A FIGGEN DOG
Well I am here visiting my family and as usual I am sick as a dog,it happens everytime I go to INDIANAPOLIS,not sure if it's the change in weather,or something in this state.....so I went and got more medicine,and gonna try the airborne stuff i see on tv........my brother goes here try some v-c so I took one and it's supposed to help so I think I am gonna take this on a regular basis since i am going to GEORGIA in a few weeks I don't wanna be sick there like I was last year,but I was already sick it wasen't the weather there thank goodness.
So any who I am gonna go to bed early tonight and hopefully sleep a good bit and rest my body,we are having a cookout tomorrow on my last day here so i wanna be well rested,and not all stuffed up and coughing my head off,so that's all I have been up to,so I hope everyone has a great sat. night and sunday......muah xoxoxoxoxox
So any who I am gonna go to bed early tonight and hopefully sleep a good bit and rest my body,we are having a cookout tomorrow on my last day here so i wanna be well rested,and not all stuffed up and coughing my head off,so that's all I have been up to,so I hope everyone has a great sat. night and sunday......muah xoxoxoxoxox
