Turn Frustration Into Motivation

I found myself thinking tonight while watching biggest loser as they were working out,wow i remember a few months ago i was on target working out several times a day and feeling awesome,then things and life happens.
Before you know it the weight creeps back on even though still working out my food there for awhile wasent on target,then id get back on track then fall back off..good intentions but alot of fails as well.So apparently i was eating all that i was burning off and then some....

We all have done and said that when i lose this weight i wont put it back on im not going back there again,and before you know it you have that a ha moment and you get this slap against the head that says WHAT ARE YOU DOING,WHY ARE YOU GONNA LET ALL THE HARD WORK AND DETICATION YOU PUT INTO THIS GO DOWN THE DRAIN??? Also when i see previous contestants on bl and they have gained all or most of their weight back and I say wow how can they do that? Iwould never let that happen to me... Now those words are coming back to bite me in the butt,granted I have only put 20 lbs on of the 135 that i have lost but thats still to much cause i feel like its mainly fat gain cause i havent been weight training either and i need that for the inches..and things just feel differently with my body since i havent been using weights.

So with all that being said i understand how it can happen,and to never say never,but i decided that im making a new commitment to myself cause i am worth it and im sick and tired of feeling like crap...and dont like that im slowly falling into that old mentality its only a cookie there will be cardio tomorrow then no cardio happens and the eating crap continues,so tomorrow my training continues for the mini marathon in may(if not i will not be able to finish and i will be devistated)so that means a run in the am weights in afternoon and a bike ride in early evening.

Also its the little things like a pair of jeans that fit just right.....sorry if i confuse you all there is always so much running through my brain as i type and im trying to get it all in as i remember lol

So thanks guys and gals for reading my rants HERES TO A NEW AND HEALTHIER LIFE AND TO TRY NOT TO SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF

XOXO JENN