Turn Frustration Into Motivation

I found myself thinking tonight while watching biggest loser as they were working out,wow i remember a few months ago i was on target working out several times a day and feeling awesome,then things and life happens.
Before you know it the weight creeps back on even though still working out my food there for awhile wasent on target,then id get back on track then fall back off..good intentions but alot of fails as well.So apparently i was eating all that i was burning off and then some....

We all have done and said that when i lose this weight i wont put it back on im not going back there again,and before you know it you have that a ha moment and you get this slap against the head that says WHAT ARE YOU DOING,WHY ARE YOU GONNA LET ALL THE HARD WORK AND DETICATION YOU PUT INTO THIS GO DOWN THE DRAIN??? Also when i see previous contestants on bl and they have gained all or most of their weight back and I say wow how can they do that? Iwould never let that happen to me... Now those words are coming back to bite me in the butt,granted I have only put 20 lbs on of the 135 that i have lost but thats still to much cause i feel like its mainly fat gain cause i havent been weight training either and i need that for the inches..and things just feel differently with my body since i havent been using weights.

So with all that being said i understand how it can happen,and to never say never,but i decided that im making a new commitment to myself cause i am worth it and im sick and tired of feeling like crap...and dont like that im slowly falling into that old mentality its only a cookie there will be cardio tomorrow then no cardio happens and the eating crap continues,so tomorrow my training continues for the mini marathon in may(if not i will not be able to finish and i will be devistated)so that means a run in the am weights in afternoon and a bike ride in early evening.

Also its the little things like a pair of jeans that fit just right.....sorry if i confuse you all there is always so much running through my brain as i type and im trying to get it all in as i remember lol

So thanks guys and gals for reading my rants HERES TO A NEW AND HEALTHIER LIFE AND TO TRY NOT TO SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF

XOXO JENN

A change is happening

Well tonight i was hungry and didnt wanna have heavy food cause im taking baby steps to kims beauty detox,even though i have been gf etc for several years but the food pairing etc is a change in itself and to add more and different kinds of greens in my diet.
So after 2second thought i was like im going to go make my first ggs,and to much to my surprise it was outstanding i cut the recipe to 1 serving but it was more than 1 lol there was plenty left over,so after i poured my first glass and stored the rest in the fridge,i drank the first and was like well the serving was supposed to be 1 so i might as well go finish it off hahahahaha SO I DID.
I'm sure you all have heard that you are never supposed to drink your calories which to a point i agree and this is the exception cause for me its hard to eat all the greens youre supposed to get in one day and with me if im hungry fruit just doesnt fill me up, so this is an easy solution get my greens,fruit and ice and its a filling healthy treat,well guys thats all for now im gonna finish my ggs and catch up on some tv...nite all

xoxox jenn

Just for today

I find myself saying this over and over several times a day and maybe just maybe one day when I say it,it will sink in...

xoxo Jenn

Overwhelming

For some reason out of the blue im feeling alittle overwhelmed tonight,alot of mental battles going on inside not sure if its just my body detoxing from all the crap thats inside my body from the holidays that i ate....and i ate bad,so i decided to go back to the basics with some new adjustments..

I have read about kimberly snyder a cn so i got her ibook and read it several times cause its an adjustment and to make sure i understand what i am doing cause it does take me some time to understand things,and it bothers me sometimes that i do that cause then i tend to overthink things and make it worse.HER book is awesome and it makes alot of sense and makes you more aware of how and what we are eating,but one of my down falls is if i dont get instant gratification like losing weight and inches i get upset and stop and i need to retink that cause i know the body needs time to adjust but thats easier said than done.
But im just gonna keep at it and realize that if i give my body fresh semi organic (money permitting cause organic is pricey) that my body will respond cause it will know how to use and digest the healthy food ,and with GODS help i feel i can finally get this right.....of course i know even though its healthy food like nuts for instance is still high in calories so i still have to monitor those things but with my cardio/weights it will top it off.
Enough with my ramblings it seems like when i blog theres so much going through my mind and things are scattered all over the place lol nothings in order hehe but i mean well

xoxo jenn

Something New

Thanks to a great friend Ive decided to start messing around with photography,i would see her pics and think wow she does such a great job and pictures are a great way to save memories that our minds tend to forget about sometimes.
So for CHRISTMAS i got a canon t2i and it does take some time getting used to but im loving it alot..but the other part of the battle is the editing lol but shes gonna help me with that too,im the kind of person who wont stop til I get it right or figure it out..
So thank you my Kshim for giving me some great ideas and inspiring me.

Wow its been along time

I can't believe its been so long since i have visited this blog well thats about t change,it seems like things went along smoother for me when i did...so later tonight I will blog about some stuff going on and it might feel better to vent to til then xo

jen

MY RACE/NEW THOUGHTS

Well it has been a long time since i have blogged so i figured i would do alittle today,i always have big motivations after watching biggest loser.I hae to really really get my crap together and stop self sabotageing myself i am my own worst enemy...i lose 1.5 which took me forever literally them something happens mentally and i start on a downward spiral and come the following weeks weigh in and i am up the same amount i lost the week before.
So today is brand new like i am starting from scratch and havent lost any weight over the past several years,fresh mindset fresh everything..I started the day out with 4.5 mile run and will get in 2 more cardio sessions plus chest/shoulders/tris. I also realized my eating needs to be cleaner like it used to be cause its not gonna do me any good to bust my butt with all this cardio and have crappy eating since weightloss is about 80% nutrition and 20% cardio....so not so clean eating is cancelling out all my hard work in cardio and i dont want it cancel it out i want fat loss.
So i am so excited about my first 1/2 marathon that i cant stand it i hae been training for about 2 years for this and i figured my first race should be in the city that i love sooooo much....INDIANAPOLIS and im hoping the medal will be in the shape of a race car hahahha so thats all i got for now i hope everyone keep on keeping on and always keep saying I CAN AND I WILL.
xoxoxo Jenn