Well yesterday i was so ready to throw in the towel,i seriously had no more fight left in me....this weight is just taking over my life it's all i think about,i am one who gets excited to step on the scale and see if all my hard work pays off....and when i step on and nothing it just brings me so far down i dont wanna get up,but i think about how i feel after i exercise and there's no feeling like it,it just makes everything seem so light.....
After all there are worse things in this world,it is true when you have such a minor amount of weight to lose it is a different animal and has to be treated like one,the first 80lbs did come off like a piece of cake and it's depressing to have a whole yr pass and lose like 4lbs.....it is so heartbreaking.....and those 4 came last week,and this week's weigh in was so upsetting i did the same as i did to lose the 4 and noda,well today when i weighed in the scale moved again,like it did when i lost 4lbs......i weigh in daily to keep myself on track and thats how i know im on the right track with the 2lbs gone this morning,so if the scale constantly goes down some here and there everyday it all adds up to a nice loss for next thursday.
So GOD willing and his strength to get me through my tough workouts and cravings(which haven't been there,cause i have my sugar levels straight,and no self sabotage)i think i can be at my goal by summer.So i think i'm gonna keep my running and weights the same til i stay the same for 2 weeks or 3 then i will switch it up and adjust my calories.
jennifer
Easter Sunday
Well it's really just another sunday for me,(besides what easter means) I am with no family and friends for another holiday so i am so upset......so i will spend it with my treadmill and the tv.
So i will make a ham dinner for Tom and turkey cutlets for me since I also gave up pork,so maybe i will bake some sweet potato fries in the oven with some vegys......been doing really good with food and exercise,I think after my breakfast settles i will go workout and get it done so i can start Toms easter dinner so he can eat around 2 or so.
Well there is really not much to say i am really boring.... Iam glad to be alive but my life is boring and sucks most of the time.
So i hope everyone enjoys their day,and has a happy easter
So i will make a ham dinner for Tom and turkey cutlets for me since I also gave up pork,so maybe i will bake some sweet potato fries in the oven with some vegys......been doing really good with food and exercise,I think after my breakfast settles i will go workout and get it done so i can start Toms easter dinner so he can eat around 2 or so.
Well there is really not much to say i am really boring.... Iam glad to be alive but my life is boring and sucks most of the time.
So i hope everyone enjoys their day,and has a happy easter
Tricks of the brain
Why is it that the brain literally has a mind of it's own?It literally tries to sabotage all your hard work......the last few days my brain has been saying it sure has been along tima since we had cake,and pizza,and of course it's been saying that cause i have been on an awesome streak lately woooooohooooooo,i think my body has decided to give in and let go.
I changed a few things around and feel really good about what have done and been doing,i never realized that i wasen't eating as clean as i thought i was,nothing out of a box,if i can't pronounce it i don't eat it,and i think my body is thanking me for it.
I think the body has a set point where it's really comfortable and at a happy state cause i notice when i start to go down in weight my hunger increases and next thing you know the scale is back up again,that happened the other day after my workout i had my shake and after that no matter what i ate i was hungry,and i think my body was fighting weightloss my making feel and think i was hungry cause it didn't want me to lose it wanted me to eat.......so after i realized that i fought it big time and since then it hasen't happened again since then,and i think i broke that set point cause now things are going GREAT.
The past few weeks i have really started to listen to my body and really pay attention to how it acts towards different things,food and exercise....upping the heart rate and intensity has helped a great deal along with the clean eating.....
With that said......TO GET LEAN YOU HAVE TO EAT CLEAN....WHEN YOU EAT CLEAN YOU STAY LEAN.
JENNIFER
I changed a few things around and feel really good about what have done and been doing,i never realized that i wasen't eating as clean as i thought i was,nothing out of a box,if i can't pronounce it i don't eat it,and i think my body is thanking me for it.
I think the body has a set point where it's really comfortable and at a happy state cause i notice when i start to go down in weight my hunger increases and next thing you know the scale is back up again,that happened the other day after my workout i had my shake and after that no matter what i ate i was hungry,and i think my body was fighting weightloss my making feel and think i was hungry cause it didn't want me to lose it wanted me to eat.......so after i realized that i fought it big time and since then it hasen't happened again since then,and i think i broke that set point cause now things are going GREAT.
The past few weeks i have really started to listen to my body and really pay attention to how it acts towards different things,food and exercise....upping the heart rate and intensity has helped a great deal along with the clean eating.....
With that said......TO GET LEAN YOU HAVE TO EAT CLEAN....WHEN YOU EAT CLEAN YOU STAY LEAN.
JENNIFER
Just another sunday
Well it's sunday already......nothing really going on,sitting here watching basketball the LAKERS of course......todays been a good day of exercise and food,just debating to do weights tonight or not,maybe tomorrow before cardio.
I like being home alone sometimes but i'm alone m-f 7am-4:45pm,and sometimes it's to much to be home alone on the weekends too,Tom is at his echure party for the season so who knows what time he will be home,so i guess i will just watch tv and mess around on the puter and maybe chat alittle.
Well thats all for tonight i guess,not much really to say i'm kinda boring hehehehe
jennifer
I like being home alone sometimes but i'm alone m-f 7am-4:45pm,and sometimes it's to much to be home alone on the weekends too,Tom is at his echure party for the season so who knows what time he will be home,so i guess i will just watch tv and mess around on the puter and maybe chat alittle.
Well thats all for tonight i guess,not much really to say i'm kinda boring hehehehe
jennifer
THE BLAHS
Well today is a blah day,it's raining and kinda chilly.....which is why i am glad i have a treadmill so i don't miss a workout because of the weather.
I was so excited when tom gave me my new hr monitor(it's a polar f6) yesterday,i have a different one but it just gives my hr and that's it,i never knew how many calories i was burning or anything,my treadmill counts calories but its like most treadmills it's based on a 150lb person which i am NOT .I was shocked to see the difference in calories from my hr monitor(which i have to add my personal info like height,weight,age,etc.)to the treadmill it was like 60 cal difference the treadmill had me more.....which is an upset cause i was gauging my progress by that and add those calories up everyday for 7 days can add up to a gain YIKES.
So now i know i have to kick up my workouts to get those extra calories off,and with my hr monitor it adds all the calories from the workouts and gives the % of fat from the calories which is nice to see let me tell you lol......I think tom got tired of hearing me say i wish i knew how many calories i was burning and it was bugging me,so needless to say i am glad i got that gift so now i can gauge my progress, much more cause i can put my hr monitor to my speakers and it downloads right to my computer and i can physically see the results....well thats enough babbling for now,need to get up enough strengh to go for a walk after dinner,yes walk not run cause i think my glutes are still on the treadmill then ill cool down with some yoga,just love it.......
much health,
jennifer
I was so excited when tom gave me my new hr monitor(it's a polar f6) yesterday,i have a different one but it just gives my hr and that's it,i never knew how many calories i was burning or anything,my treadmill counts calories but its like most treadmills it's based on a 150lb person which i am NOT .I was shocked to see the difference in calories from my hr monitor(which i have to add my personal info like height,weight,age,etc.)to the treadmill it was like 60 cal difference the treadmill had me more.....which is an upset cause i was gauging my progress by that and add those calories up everyday for 7 days can add up to a gain YIKES.
So now i know i have to kick up my workouts to get those extra calories off,and with my hr monitor it adds all the calories from the workouts and gives the % of fat from the calories which is nice to see let me tell you lol......I think tom got tired of hearing me say i wish i knew how many calories i was burning and it was bugging me,so needless to say i am glad i got that gift so now i can gauge my progress, much more cause i can put my hr monitor to my speakers and it downloads right to my computer and i can physically see the results....well thats enough babbling for now,need to get up enough strengh to go for a walk after dinner,yes walk not run cause i think my glutes are still on the treadmill then ill cool down with some yoga,just love it.......
much health,
jennifer
A SAD DAY
Well its been a sad day actually 2,i have tendonitis in my chest cavity and when i over do it my chest hurts really bad and it makes it hard for me to breathe..i had an awesome but hard workout on sunday and monday is when it started so i know it was that workout that did it.
So needless to say i didn't work out yesterday or today,well i thought i would at least try a walk on the treadmill no running and when i bent over to put on my shoes mt chest was thumping and it was hard to breathe so i didn't do anything today either......i knew i would be in a battle with myself over working out cause i only take a day off for rest,and i was surprised cause yesterday i didn't beat myself up cause i knew my body was in serious trouble....today is a different story i feel like crap and i wanna go for a run it just makes me feel so much better and makes my problems seem smaller than what they were before my run.
So i think thats all i hate sitting i would rather be up moving.....sore or not there will be no 3rd day resting i will be doing a run or a fast walk it only takes a day for my medicine to kick in and when it does im good to go.
Jennifer
So needless to say i didn't work out yesterday or today,well i thought i would at least try a walk on the treadmill no running and when i bent over to put on my shoes mt chest was thumping and it was hard to breathe so i didn't do anything today either......i knew i would be in a battle with myself over working out cause i only take a day off for rest,and i was surprised cause yesterday i didn't beat myself up cause i knew my body was in serious trouble....today is a different story i feel like crap and i wanna go for a run it just makes me feel so much better and makes my problems seem smaller than what they were before my run.
So i think thats all i hate sitting i would rather be up moving.....sore or not there will be no 3rd day resting i will be doing a run or a fast walk it only takes a day for my medicine to kick in and when it does im good to go.
Jennifer
Can you hear the echo
Well its another day in my life where i do the same thing,its like the echo in a canyon...same thing over and over,i had a hard time waking up this morning not sure if it was the time change,up til 1:30 which i doubt cause that never really bothers me,or my body is tired from my hard workout yesterday.
I have been running ALOT and my legs and butt are feeling it, and heres where it echos...same thing in day in and day out.....get up have coffee with breakfy wait an hour or so go workout..have my shake..work or watch tv,or computer..have lunch...watch my soaps....have afternoon snack.....finish soaps...then start to get dinner ready for when tom gets home at 4:45pm...eat dinner and hang out...then if its a lifting day i will do it after dinner or in morning and do cardio after dinner...but either way my life is the same its just like clockwork..its pretty SAD.
I dont have any family around they all live in indianapolis,and i really dont have friends local..because 1 i dont trust easily and 2 my weight has kept me in i never wanted to go out.....but with my weightloss thats changing i like being outgoing and i'm not afraid to go out of my way to talk to people,i'm not embarassed of myself as much.
So thank GOD for myspace i met some really nice people,hopefully i will meet them all someday...i did meet karen and her family and some of her friends and they are all so nice hopefully i will go back down this summer......well thats enough babbling i got off the subject of my repititious and bring life but im ALIVE so thats all the matters.
have a good day....think ill go for a run
I have been running ALOT and my legs and butt are feeling it, and heres where it echos...same thing in day in and day out.....get up have coffee with breakfy wait an hour or so go workout..have my shake..work or watch tv,or computer..have lunch...watch my soaps....have afternoon snack.....finish soaps...then start to get dinner ready for when tom gets home at 4:45pm...eat dinner and hang out...then if its a lifting day i will do it after dinner or in morning and do cardio after dinner...but either way my life is the same its just like clockwork..its pretty SAD.
I dont have any family around they all live in indianapolis,and i really dont have friends local..because 1 i dont trust easily and 2 my weight has kept me in i never wanted to go out.....but with my weightloss thats changing i like being outgoing and i'm not afraid to go out of my way to talk to people,i'm not embarassed of myself as much.
So thank GOD for myspace i met some really nice people,hopefully i will meet them all someday...i did meet karen and her family and some of her friends and they are all so nice hopefully i will go back down this summer......well thats enough babbling i got off the subject of my repititious and bring life but im ALIVE so thats all the matters.
have a good day....think ill go for a run
Today's blog
Well today i will write my first blog,and not much to say right now cause it's late and i'm tired
karen and i worked hard on getting it all set up,she is an absolute angel,she is so good with this stuff and me well i fell off the short bus if you know what i mean.
It's gonna be a first for me too cause when i write i never use punctuation or anything cause it takes to long and i'm always in a hurry.......so thats all for now folks, sleep tight everyone
jen
karen and i worked hard on getting it all set up,she is an absolute angel,she is so good with this stuff and me well i fell off the short bus if you know what i mean.
It's gonna be a first for me too cause when i write i never use punctuation or anything cause it takes to long and i'm always in a hurry.......so thats all for now folks, sleep tight everyone
jen
My New Blog
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